I am seeking a writer help in putting my story of my life into chapters in a book

Hi, my name is Monica. I have been told my whole life that I need to write a book about my life and I keep throwing away my drafts because it is all sad. I don’t know how to put light, growth, lessons, strengths and finally hope I have also hesitated and scared to expose things and people that has happened in my life. Some are very painful and some are very comical . I seeking help putting my words on paper and have it not be all horrible. Some things that I have gone through in my life are being born to a drug addicted, mother. She did not want to deal with us put us in the bottom of a bunkbed wrapped in chicken wire and a neighbor heard us and that is when we became wards of the state and adopted out. I can’ remember the day we left with our garbage bags, my sister was 4 and I was 3. I remember that day there is so many things that has happen but we never had the courage to speak up how we were treated I have many things that could go on a book. I believe that I could have a series of not just my beginning, but my age moving forward such as in the 7th grade my best friend’s dad shot her and her mom with a shotgun because of being called out for mole molestation and getting kicked out then him breaking in that night. My sister and I were also and never spoke up out of fear. . Then I had an accident where I should’ve died falling out two stories of a barn loft. I have stories of my difficult marriage that could also be another book in itself. I have gone through a house, fire, addiction to escorting as it means to support my three kids. This behavior was all after I divorced him. I was loyal and supportive. I with these memories and thoughts and regret. My whole life has consisted of physical mental and social pain. I don’t know how to put joy and pain on paper, I don’t know where to start or who to ask for help. I found your webpage and am reaching out. This terrifies me yet I have no doubt that I have a message our purpose someway in my story of life. God says if it doesn’t make you nervous it’s not the right thing and If this isn’t my outlet or purpose, at least I would have knowing either way.
This is long, and I’m probably all over the board with this text it’s just a proof of my writing skills lol. My question I have is am I going down the right path. Would be able to put this into something? And would anyone be willing to take a chance with me continently. At this stage in my life, I am struggling financially and all I can give you at this point is my story.